tanong nga.

kung may plan na si God para sa atin, bakit pa tayo binigyan ng choice?

why make things complicated? why not make it simple. a single path. one with bumps and stuff in it, but no big walls to climb, rivers to cross and mountains to trek?
why does everything need to be complicated?

trials and things that hinder us to move forward in our lives, why?
bakit pa.. kung madali naman kung wala na.

why not make everything good.

if God is good, everything he makes is good and he created everything, does that mean bad people are good?

if God planned this whole thing called life, does that mean conflicts, arguements, misunderstandings, and in the end war, does that mean all of it are good?

if God made the people good, why do they turn bad?

is it the will of the person to become bad?

why??

today was a really great day.

it has been three days in school that i got really tired just by sitting. the heat is really getting to me. i feel like everytime that the day ends, i am sooooo tired just because of the heat. i have 3-hour breaks during mondays and wednesdays that is really making me bored out off of my mind just thinking what Jonna and I will do in that time for the whole term.

enough about that. i was really glad today after i found out who my professors were in my classes. my integral calculus prof was my prof last term who gave me a 1.5 for my final grade. hehe. my current issues professor was also my prof last term in sociology that makes everything really easy to understand that's why i would be amazed if anyone fails the class. the last one is my professor in art appreciation.

i really like my professor in art appreciation since she's really nice and i love her thoughts. hehe. i love how she thinks of herself, of how she thinks of others, and how she thinks of God. i got really inspired in studying since she got really great achievements, one of them is being awarded by ex-president Fidel V. Ramos as one of the 10(?) outstanding students. another is that when she got her masteral degree, her lowest grade was 1.25 and her highest was 1. how kewl is that?? hehe. she was really really nice.

i like people who doesn't mind what people think of her. she said that, i'm already paraphrasing, she has her own thing and others can't do nothing about it as long as she doesn't hurt or disrupt others. she also said that as long as she knows herself and what she do, she doesn't need to explain anything to anyone, only to God. it was really inspiring, and although my other classmates got really bored in our class, i really got interested in the subject even more and forgot that i waited 4 hours before that class, since i got like a 3-hour break and my professor in the class before that didn't show so me and my friend had to wait for the next class.

i was just really glad today.

this is my favorite peom, since its the only peom that i connected with.

i encoutered the peom in the movie In Her Shoes, starring Cameron Diaz, the other girl and the other older woman (i don't know their names), in the part where the old guy, who was actually an ex-prof in the movie, persuaded Cameron's character, who has a problem with reading (she can't read! hehe, just joking), to read a peom for him. the peom gave her inspiration and stuff (you got to watch the movie).

anyways, the peom is about the art of losing, obviously, and how a person thinks that its easy. a person makes a facade that makes them look unattached to things, but deep inside are really hooked into them, and uses this facade as their defense mechanism.

its really good, the movie and the peom. i like it, maybe you'll like it too.

i don't know what is it with this summer. i really don't like it. it must be the extreme heat (like the past summers wasn't), or the fact that i have been only watching tv, sleeping, eating, listening to music or watching rented movies.

i'm so eager to go back to school. i already miss doing stuff. it's very dull at home. the past 3 weeks is very boring. i have only went out a couple of times. that doesn't cut it really. i need something new. something i won't get bored easily.

okay, here's something new. my mom forced(?) me to cook for dinner for the past two nights. the first one was pininyahang manok, which i think turned out wrong since i still don't know how to do stuff, and yesterday's dinner was menudo. i know you might think that those were two really easy recipes but you must know i really don't know anything about cooking besides eating the product. hehe.

it was really a bad idea that i let the opportunity to do something pass. my friends invited me to join them in studying painting. i told my mom but i didn't tell my dad, who i really should've persuaded since now i've got nothing to do... hmmm.

aaaaaaahh. wala ako magawa! hehe. good luck na lang. that's it.
yehbah!

my first blog entry since October. hehe.

Here's the scoop. I am now a serious Mapuan. hehe. Busy-busihan na sobra. Adik!
Since the start of the term, it seemed as if I was stacked with assignments, projects and plates, all given na sabay sabay! adik. I don't have time to go to malls anymore, even just hang out with my clique, which makes me really feel guilty, kasi I really made a point that I would always have time for my clique. I feel guilty coz I spend all my time with my Mapuan friends and rarely with my clique. sowi.

Emote emote. hehe. =P yehbah!